Friday, September 27, 2013

Army wives and stuff

                                           Well off hubby goes again back to the field but at least it's only for a few days this time man you never get used to it you just learn how to deal and keep yourself busy. But I must say i'm really not sad about it or anything because I have made a great new friend and she has 2 kids just like me and she's from Okc just like me so it's so cool to meet someone from where i'm from. Because I will have to admit I stay to myself a lot because it's really hard to meet a genuinely nice army wife too hang out with I mean that really gets me cause I am not quite like other women i'm very different and a lot of people just don't get me thus me being a loner but hey it gets lonely when your hubby is gone working all the time you have to find other things to do because just sitting in the house will literally drive you crazy especially on such an isolated place trust me I know from experience because that's what I did when I first got here anyways so to get out the house I tried the whole joining the FRG and it was okay for awhile but I felt like it wasn't me, I tried making friends on my own and the ones I made were much younger than me with no kids so we didn't have much in common so those friendships didn't go any further than inviting each other to BBQ's and Parties every now and then, and of course I did meet some great people but they ended up moving or getting stationed somewhere else, and some wives treat you as though you are lower than them like they treat you based off of your husbands rank as if they themselves are in the army so if your hubby is a private and there hubby is a specialist or sgt they won't even acknowledge you unless they absolutely have too, and last but not least of course you have the sometime friends I call them sometime friends because they pretend to be your friend but they only come around sometimes like when they need something or their other friends blew them off  it's crazy and surprisingly a lot like the show army wives go figure. I used to watch that show with my mom all the time but would have never dreamed that I would be an army wife hell I never thought I would be a wife one day lmao life is so crazy and surprising. N-e ways so on such an isolated place and with so few options I get very excited when I meet someone I actually really get along with and enjoy being around. Well now I feel like i'm rambling hahaha so i'm saying night night until next time
Muah&Smooches!!:)
Well gotta love it here feels like i just got my hubby back after being gone for pretty much the whole month of august he got back in time to celebrate my 27th birthday with me we threw a little get together, well because i'm kind of a loner I only have a few people in my circle and that's just how I like it. Below is my birthday outfit I put together the shirt I made myself well I refashioned an old t-shirt lol. but anyways we had a blast!!! So blessed to have him in my life




Monday, September 23, 2013

Stuck in a Rut

I don't know what's going on with me lately but like ever since my 27th birthday, I just feel like Im stuck in a rut I have no friends or much of a social life. Most of my time is spent in the house except for the rare occassions im invited somewhere or take the kids to the park. I mean I do stuff, I have hobbies like sewing I love fashion & making clothes and I work and go to school. Yet for some reason I feel lonely hubby and I dont ever spend time together without the kids and the few times we have he got super drunk and was very embarrasing so I kind of dislike going places with him cause I never know if he's going to make an ass out of himself. I feel so pathetic trying to make friends and impress females I dont really like and that dont really like me. Sigh I dont know I guess I just want a companion or girlfriend because my hubby is never there for me. Its weird cause I want a female friend but at the same time im scared because I dont trust anyone. Im a sad case however as im writing this Im feeling better guess I just needed to get it off my chest so I can move past this feeling lol. Anyways I will continue to pray and just be myself and be happy that im blessed to have 2 beautiful lil boys and hubby that although drives me crazy he really truly genuinely loves me so I guess in all actuality things are how they should be. That's it for now Muah:) Smooches

Sunday, September 22, 2013

VENT!!!!

Man i just need to vent a little bit and since I can't talk to my family about my problems and I don't have any real friends I trust enough to talk  i'm just gonna blog about it since this is basically like my only means to an outlet in this freaking place so here it goes ARRRRRRGGh!!! now that feels a little better but not much
So it's been awhile since I been on my own blog, but a lot has happened I started school and i'm also working from home, i'm trying to potty train my 2 yr old which has been well you know hahaha. Anyways just wanted to post a lil something. i guess i'm not to sure what to do with this blog but i will figure something out lol